好像好一陣子沒有在這裡寫部落格了耶
羽涵20180401星期天早上7點抵達荷蘭找我玩
我們先在萊頓、阿姆斯特丹玩
然後又去了比利時的布魯塞爾和布魯日
最後回到荷蘭去起司市集、贊斯堡、庫肯霍夫花園、海牙
在羽涵來了之後天氣意外的放晴了
終於不用再穿著厚厚的羽絨外套
也可以穿著短袖、圍著薄圍巾、穿著薄外套、戴墨鏡登場了
由於把腳踏車放在萊頓火車站前然後去接了羽涵
後來幾天我們經過的時候我意外的發現
腳踏車不見了！
我一開始有點不敢相信
後來我決定天天用走的去學校 圖書館 超市 宿舍
然後這幾天發現其實還不錯
因為真的春天到了
陽光明媚
櫻花盛開
粉色白色桃紅色
落到了地上就成了點點的雪花
美不勝收
晚上去散步的時候會遇到幾隻貓咪
懶散但是卻不怕人
走在那條路上
放眼望去
天空由粉色漸層到藍色
真的好美
來了這麼久
時間也過了一半
我真的開始喜歡上這裡了
2018年3月15日 星期四
2018年3月7日 星期三
愛自己的旅程
來英國一定要吃fish & chips 呀!
爬了很多文找到CP值最高的Master Superfish
帶走這麼大一份(我吃了兩天)只要6磅！
聽說是全倫敦最好喝的咖啡
但其實我平時不喝咖啡QQ
喝起來偏酸
應該是太厲害我不了解吧~
沒甚麼就是想自拍
柯芬園!!超級棒的地方!!
主要逛街的路真的很好逛!
錢不要帶太多就不會失心瘋哈哈XD
數學橋
來看看徐志摩的康橋
原來撐蒿就是這樣啊...
先來幾張文不對題的照片
一個人出去玩就是怎麼拍都很臉很大QQ
不過也是在這趟旅程我更專心地體會每一個當下都好好照顧自己
但是直到今天都還沒有成功
不過我一直在努力地維持這片土地的乾淨
也就是誠實的面對自己所想的
之前所分享的那幾篇
很不愛自己的伊湞正在努力的學習好好愛自己
在經歷了一個多月不知所措以及不安之後
現在的生活算是越來越上軌道了
開始有了一些讓人安心的規律行為
比如說 運動 讀書 寫日記
當然 有的時候做得不進人意時 (這個人通常就只有我自己)
我還是會開始極度的厭惡自己
但是面對這種情況的處理已經越來越好了
每當我不知不覺陷入一種難受、噁心的感覺時
我就會先停下手邊正在進行的事
問問自己怎麼了?
有的時候是有原因的
大部分的原因都來自我覺得自己「應該」要怎麼樣
我也是在這麼多的「應該」當中漸漸累積一些能力的
但是這些「應該」的出現
也讓我覺得自己做的某些事情是「不應該」的
Ex.
我不應該睡到那麼晚!
我不應該吃那麼多吐司!
我不應該只有運動20分鐘!
我不應該看一整天的電視!
我不應該只讀2個小時15分鐘而不是兩個半小時!
每一天我都有好多應該要做的事
在我的心裡
我就是一個無時無刻都在犯錯的孩子
不知道會有多少人跟我有一樣的共鳴
沒有也沒關係
因為每個人的一生的課題都不同
有的人早修晚修 有的人一生免修
我發現了一些可以幫助自己無條件愛自己的方法:
1.自我對話
當你討厭自己的時候告訴自己
雖然我不喜歡你XXX，但是我依然愛你
2.寫日記
寫日記是幫助自己單純的陳述事實
需要面對的就不是無處安放的恐懼而是現實當中所面臨的問題
3.抽離
將自己的靈魂抽離自己的身體
遇到任何情況，問自己，如果你是她，你會怎麼樣好好愛她、照顧她?
其實，這些方法都很類似，意思就是你想辦法
好好地照顧自己，把自己放在第一位考量。
想要好好地愛人，就必須先愛自己。
我們缺乏的東西是無法給出的。
比如說我今天是一個很缺愛的小孩，
我會做很多怪異的舉動(有好有壞)來吸引爸媽注意
比如說我今天是一個很沒有自信的孩子，
我會做很多虛張聲勢、宣揚的動作來獲得他人的肯定
原因是，來自我心理內部的肯定不足。
我們所欠缺的，我試圖向外索取；
我們所擁有並且溢出的，才能向外給予。
你可以像個媽媽一樣無條件愛自己的孩子、
也可以像電視劇裡面的男主角無條件愛死女主角一樣
(雖然愛死的原因常常考驗著正常人的理性)
這幾種辦法幫助我在某些焦慮的時候走了過來
也真的有效。
愛自己不是放縱
為了成為更好的自己，首先要知道此刻的你已然是一個奇蹟；
愛自己是適度地走出舒適圈
但卻不是將自己無時無刻都置入恐慌當中。
希望你也能好好的愛自己
這個陪你走一輩子的自己。
2018年2月11日 星期日
I hate myself, I am learning to love myself
Until now, I cannot stop blaming for all my faults.
I hate myself, and I have lots of reasons to hate myself.
I am struggling to find the way to love myself.
The life in Leiden University let me see the world.
I always compare myself with others, and then I start to hate myself.
I hate myself cannot express my opinion in an appropriate way,
I hate myself cannot enjoy most of the parties cause I was too tired,
I hate myself cannot study as much as I expected,
I hate myself cannot stop eating too much,
and I hate myself for everything.
I know that sounds crazy, but I really struggle with it.
Now, I start to learn of accepting all of me,
and love myself no matter what.
It doesn't mean that you should hate yourself, even though you know there are lots of things leave to be desire,
It's you, get this opportunity to challenge yourself.
It's you, save a lot of money by biking for a long distance and wash all the dishes and clothes by hands every day.
It's you, try your best to make new friends.
It's you, get to sleep early and be a morning person in order to do more study.
It's you, choose a totally different topic to study.
...
It's this amazing you.
The only one person that will accompany with you for the whole life, is YOU.
It makes no sense to hate this kind, lovely, humble, and hard-working girl.
...
Ohhhhh I should stop typing, otherwise I will cry...
There is one sentence I would always expect some one say it to me,
"I love you."
Yi-Zhen, I love you, forever.
2018年2月9日 星期五
Exchange Student In Leiden University - First week
Because I am now in the LU library, I cannot type in chinese.
I have too much to say about this week.
First, we finally started our semester, and I suffered such a incredible "culture shock".
Also, the way of educating is totally different from Taiwanese education.
In the past, I have to do nothing before the class start, but now, I have to do sooo many reading as well as reports before the fist class.
This semester, I enroll in "Architecture: The temple and the stupa " I do not have any background of architecture, I choose this course just because I want to learn more beyond my major field.
It's far beyond my expectation that I should do a representation on my first class!!!
-
As I mentioned above is something related to education.
In addition, the weather here also makes me going crazy.
It's so cold! I come from topical place, and now I should adapt to this freezing whether.
The third different thing is that, we bike to everywhere although the weather is crazy.
My bike is a mountain bike, it looks so great, but in fact, I prefer a normal one because this bike is hard to be controlled!
...
Ok, I have blamed for everything for now, but I still feel very grateful, indeed.
If I haven't come here, I will never see how amazing people come from everywhere.
If I never been here, I will never suffer homesickness.
If I never come to Leiden University, I will never know how to learn active and be responsible to yourself.
Thanks god to let me experience this wonderful journey. I will learn to be more independent, learn to love myself no matter what, learn to be more generous, learn to take care of myself, and learn to love your life more deeply.
I will try my best to experience more, and pay more expects to all the people who come from different cultures and backgrounds.
I will try to find myself when I am here.
Thank you Yi-Zhen. You are so amazing that you cook every meal for yourself, you go to bed early and get up early, you wash all the clothes by hands, you save so much money by walking or biking, you read more and more books, you push yourself a little to indulge in the course.
I will love you, forever.
I have too much to say about this week.
First, we finally started our semester, and I suffered such a incredible "culture shock".
Also, the way of educating is totally different from Taiwanese education.
In the past, I have to do nothing before the class start, but now, I have to do sooo many reading as well as reports before the fist class.
This semester, I enroll in "Architecture: The temple and the stupa " I do not have any background of architecture, I choose this course just because I want to learn more beyond my major field.
It's far beyond my expectation that I should do a representation on my first class!!!
-
As I mentioned above is something related to education.
In addition, the weather here also makes me going crazy.
It's so cold! I come from topical place, and now I should adapt to this freezing whether.
The third different thing is that, we bike to everywhere although the weather is crazy.
My bike is a mountain bike, it looks so great, but in fact, I prefer a normal one because this bike is hard to be controlled!
...
Ok, I have blamed for everything for now, but I still feel very grateful, indeed.
If I haven't come here, I will never see how amazing people come from everywhere.
If I never been here, I will never suffer homesickness.
If I never come to Leiden University, I will never know how to learn active and be responsible to yourself.
Thanks god to let me experience this wonderful journey. I will learn to be more independent, learn to love myself no matter what, learn to be more generous, learn to take care of myself, and learn to love your life more deeply.
I will try my best to experience more, and pay more expects to all the people who come from different cultures and backgrounds.
I will try to find myself when I am here.
Thank you Yi-Zhen. You are so amazing that you cook every meal for yourself, you go to bed early and get up early, you wash all the clothes by hands, you save so much money by walking or biking, you read more and more books, you push yourself a little to indulge in the course.
I will love you, forever.
2018年1月5日 星期五
家人
最近真的在為萊頓的文件焦頭爛額
大四的期末簡直無聊得只能天天在家裡看小說追劇
倒數十天了啊~
就要離開我生長的台灣半年了呢
真的是非常的激動
之前還有太多學校的文件還不確定
心情忐忑不安
好在大多都解決了
期末的時候家裡又發生了一些狀況
好在類似的狀況我已經歷過一次浩劫
也是在期末 當時大一下學期
在這一次次的考驗之後
沒有甚麼是比家人在一起健康平安來的重要了
每當還能在課業上遇到困難時都會覺得真是奢侈
也在經歷過了這一切之後發現哥哥還是挺重要的
以前覺得我們是兩個世界的人
但是家裡遇上了危機
唯一的手足還是可以攜手走過的
真的很感激
然後...希望我離開的半年
家裡一切平安!
大四的期末簡直無聊得只能天天在家裡看小說追劇
倒數十天了啊~
就要離開我生長的台灣半年了呢
真的是非常的激動
之前還有太多學校的文件還不確定
心情忐忑不安
好在大多都解決了
期末的時候家裡又發生了一些狀況
好在類似的狀況我已經歷過一次浩劫
也是在期末 當時大一下學期
在這一次次的考驗之後
沒有甚麼是比家人在一起健康平安來的重要了
每當還能在課業上遇到困難時都會覺得真是奢侈
也在經歷過了這一切之後發現哥哥還是挺重要的
以前覺得我們是兩個世界的人
但是家裡遇上了危機
唯一的手足還是可以攜手走過的
真的很感激
然後...希望我離開的半年
家裡一切平安!
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