I hate myself, and I have lots of reasons to hate myself.
I am struggling to find the way to love myself.
The life in Leiden University let me see the world.
I always compare myself with others, and then I start to hate myself.
I hate myself cannot express my opinion in an appropriate way,
I hate myself cannot enjoy most of the parties cause I was too tired,
I hate myself cannot study as much as I expected,
I hate myself cannot stop eating too much,
and I hate myself for everything.
I know that sounds crazy, but I really struggle with it.
Now, I start to learn of accepting all of me,
and love myself no matter what.
It doesn't mean that you should hate yourself, even though you know there are lots of things leave to be desire,
It's you, get this opportunity to challenge yourself.
It's you, save a lot of money by biking for a long distance and wash all the dishes and clothes by hands every day.
It's you, try your best to make new friends.
It's you, get to sleep early and be a morning person in order to do more study.
It's you, choose a totally different topic to study.
...
It's this amazing you.
The only one person that will accompany with you for the whole life, is YOU.
It makes no sense to hate this kind, lovely, humble, and hard-working girl.
...
Ohhhhh I should stop typing, otherwise I will cry...
There is one sentence I would always expect some one say it to me,
"I love you."
Yi-Zhen, I love you, forever.
